on bad dreams and the riot act
I keep asking Allah for guidance in every matter - small or big. Guidance doesn't come in the form of an Angel descending upon a sinner like me, or a bird talking to me, but in small signs which an open mind and heart pay heed to.
One such sign was the dream you had, in which I am sad.
Yes, the blog makes me sad. The blog takes a toll on me. I have said it earlier. There is no happiness for me. I worry about you - because you may develop an attachment to this blog/me which will be very hard to detach from when the time comes - what happens then? It hurts me. At a level I feel used too. I have tried to spin it around, and use this blog to reflect on life, but it still is difficult for me. I don't need to say why.
You can infer from the above what you like, and you can do what you like. If you feel you like to give me sadness, please continue.